Empty feeling

For some reason I’ve been feeling empty and I randomly tend to feel down. It wouldn’t be so bad if I knew what was making me feel this way but I have no idea what it could be.

I turned to Maharaaj and took a Hukamnama to see what Maharaaj makes of it all and this is the Shabad that came up (its long but well worth the read).

raag soohee mehlaa 3 ghar 10
Raag Soohee, Third Mehl, Tenth House:

ik-oNkaar satgur parsaad.
One Universal Creator God. By The Grace Of The True Guru:

dunee-aa na saalaahi jo mar vanjsee.
Do not praise the world; it shall simply pass away.

lokaa na saalaahi jo mar khaak thee-ee. 1
Do not praise other people; they shall die and turn to dust. 1

vaahu mayray saahibaa vaahu.
Waaho! Waaho! Hail, hail to my Lord and Master.

gurmukh sadaa salaahee-ai sachaa vayparvaahu. 1 rahaa-o.
As Gurmukh, forever praise the One who is forever True, Independent and Carefree. 1Pause

dunee-aa kayree dostee manmukh dajh marann.
Making worldly friendships, the self-willed manmukhs burn and die.

jam pur baDhay maaree-ah vaylaa na lahann. 2
In the City of Death, they are bound and gagged and beaten; this opportunity shall never come again. 2

gurmukh janam sakaarthaa sachai sabad lagann.
The lives of the Gurmukhs are fruitful and blessed; they are committed to the True Word of the Shabad.

aatam raam pargaasi-aa sehjay sukh rahann. 3
Their souls are illuminated by the Lord, and they dwell in peace and pleasure. 3

gur kaa sabad visaari-aa doojai bhaa-ay rachann.
Those who forget the Word of the Guru's Shabad are engrossed in the love of duality.

tisnaa bhukh na utrai an-din jalat firann. 4
Their hunger and thirst never leave them, and night and day, they wander around burning. 4

dustaa naal dostee naal santaa vair karann.
Those who make friendships with the wicked, and harbor animosity to the Saints,

aap dubay kutamb si-o saglay kul dobann. 5
shall drown with their families, and their entire lineage shall be obliterated. 5

nindaa bhalee kisai kee naahee manmukh mugaDh karann.
It is not good to slander anyone, but the foolish, self-willed manmukhs still do it.

muh kaalay tin nindkaa narkay ghor pavann. 6
The faces of the slanderers turn black, and they fall into the most horrible hell. 6

ay man jaisaa sayveh taisaa hoveh tayhay karam kamaa-ay.
O mind, as you serve, so do you become, and so are the deeds that you do.

aap beej aapay hee khaavnaa kahnaa kichhoo na jaa-ay. 7
Whatever you yourself plant, that is what you shall have to eat; nothing else can be said about this. 7

mahaa purkhaa kaa bolnaa hovai kitai parthaa-ay.
The speech of the great spiritual beings has a higher purpose.

o-ay amrit bharay bharpoor heh onaa til na tamaa-ay. 8
They are filled to over-flowing with Ambrosial Nectar, and they have absolutely no greed at all. 8

gunkaaree gun sanghrai avraa updaysayn.
The virtuous accumulate virtue, and teach others.

say vadbhaagee je onaa mil rahay an-din naam la-ayn. 9
Those who meet with them are so very fortunate; night and day, they chant the Naam, the Name of the Lord. 9

daysee rijak sambaahi jin upaa-ee maydnee.
He who created the Universe, gives sustenance to it.

ayko hai daataar sachaa aap Dhanee. 10
The One Lord alone is the Great Giver. He Himself is the True Master. 10

so sach tayrai naal hai gurmukh nadar nihaal.
That True Lord is always with you; the Gurmukh is blessed with His Glance of Grace.

aapay bakhsay mayl la-ay so parabh sadaa samaal. 11
He Himself shall forgive you, and merge you into Himself; forever cherish and contemplate God. 11

man mailaa sach nirmalaa ki-o kar mili-aa jaa-ay.
The mind is impure; only the True Lord is pure. So how can it merge into Him?

parabh maylay taa mil rahai ha-umai sabad jalaa-ay. 12
God merges it into Himself, and then it remains merged; through the Word of His Shabad, the ego is burnt away. 12

so saho sachaa veesrai Dharig jeevan sansaar.
Cursed is the life in this world, of one who forgets her True Husband Lord.

nadar karay naa veesrai gurmatee veechaar. 13
The Lord grants His Mercy, and she does not forget Him, if she contemplates the Guru's Teachings. 13

satgur maylay taa mil rahaa saach rakhaa ur Dhaar.
The True Guru unites her, and so she remains united with Him, with the True Lord enshrined within her heart.

mili-aa ho-ay na veechhurhai gur kai hayt pi-aar. 14
And so united, she will not be separated again; she remains in the love and affection of the Guru. 14

pir saalaahee aapnaa gur kai sabad veechaar.
I praise my Husband Lord, contemplating the Word of the Guru's Shabad.

mil pareetam sukh paa-i-aa sobhaavantee naar. 15
Meeting with my Beloved, I have found peace; I am His most beautiful and happy soul-bride. 15

manmukh man na bhij-ee at mailay chit kathor.
The mind of the self-willed manmukh is not softened; his consciousness is totally polluted and stone-hearted.

sapai duDh pee-aa-ee-ai andar vis nikor. 16
Even if the venomous snake is fed on milk, it shall still be filled with poison. 16

aap karay kis aakhee-ai aapay bakhsanhaar.
He Himself does - who else should I ask? He Himself is the Forgiving Lord.

gur sabdee mail utrai taa sach bani-aa seegaar. 17
Through the Guru's Teachings, filth is washed away, and then, one is embellished with the ornament of Truth. 17

sachaa saahu sachay vanjaaray othai koorhay na tikann.
True is the Banker, and True are His traders. The false ones cannot remain there.

onaa sach na bhaav-ee dukh hee maahi pachann. 18
They do not love the Truth - they are consumed by their pain. 18

ha-umai mailaa jag firai mar jammai vaaro vaar.
The world wanders around in the filth of egotism; it dies, and is re-born, over and again.

pa-i-ai kirat kamaavanaa ko-ay na maytanhaar. 19
He acts in accordance with the karma of his past actions, which no one can erase. 19

santaa sangat mil rahai taa sach lagai pi-aar.
But if he joins the Society of the Saints, then he comes to embrace love for the Truth.

sach salaahee sach man dar sachai sachiaar. 20
Praising the True Lord with a truthful mind, he becomes true in the Court of the True Lord. 20

gur pooray pooree mat hai ahinis naam Dhi-aa-ay.
The Teachings of the Perfect Guru are perfect; meditate on the Naam, the Name of the Lord, day and night.

ha-umai mayraa vad rog hai vichahu thaak rahaa-ay. 21
Egotism and self-conceit are terrible diseases; tranquility and stillness come from within. 21

gur saalaahee aapnaa niv niv laagaa paa-ay.
I praise my Guru; bowing down to Him again and again, I fall at His Feet.

tan man sa-upee aagai Dharee vichahu aap gavaa-ay. 22
I place my body and mind in offering unto Him, eradicating self-conceit from within. 22

khinchotaan viguchee-ai aykas si-o liv laa-ay.
Indecision leads to ruin; focus your attention on the One Lord.

ha-umai mayraa chhad too taa sach rahai samaa-ay. 23
Renounce egotism and self-conceit, and remain merged in Truth. 23

satgur no milay se bhaa-iraa sachai sabad lagann.
Those who meet with the True Guru are my Siblings of Destiny; they are committed to the True Word of the Shabad.

sach milay say na vichhurheh dar sachai disann. 24
Those who merge with the True Lord shall not be separated again; they are judged to be True in the Court of the Lord. 24

say bhaa-ee say sajnaa jo sachaa sayvann.
They are my Siblings of Destiny, and they are my friends, who serve the True Lord.

avgan vikan pulHran gun kee saajh karaNniH. 25
They sell off their sins and demerits like straw, and enter into the partnership of virtue. 25

gun kee saajh sukh oopjai sachee bhagat karayn.
In the partnership of virtue, peace wells up, and they perform true devotional worship service.

sach vanaNjahi gur sabad si-o laahaa naam la-ayn. 26
They deal in Truth, through the Word of the Guru's Shabad, and they earn the profit of the Naam. 26

su-inaa rupaa paap kar kar sanchee-ai chalai na chaldi-aa naal.
Gold and silver may be earned by committing sins, but they will not go with you when you die.

vin naavai naal na chalsee sabh muthee jamkaal. 27
Nothing will go with you in the end, except the Name; all are plundered by the Messenger of Death. 27

man kaa tosaa har naam hai hirdai rakhahu samHaal.
The Lord's Name is the nourishment of the mind; cherish it, and preserve it carefully within your heart.

ayhu kharach akhut hai gurmukh nibhai naal. 28
This nourishment is inexhaustible; it is always with the Gurmukhs. 28

ay man moolhu bhuli-aa jaaseh pat gavaa-ay.
O mind, if you forget the Primal Lord, you shall depart, having lost your honor.

ih jagat mohi doojai vi-aapi-aa gurmatee sach Dhi-aa-ay. 29
This world is engrossed in the love of duality; follow the Guru's Teachings, and meditate on the True Lord. 29

har kee keemat na pavai har jas likhan na jaa-ay.
The Lord's value cannot be estimated; the Lord's Praises cannot be written down.

gur kai sabad man tan rapai har si-o rahai samaa-ay. 30
When one's mind and body are attuned to the Word of the Guru's Shabad, one remains merged in the Lord. 30

so saho mayraa rangulaa rangay sahj subhaa-ay.
My Husband Lord is playful; He has imbued me with His Love, with natural ease.

kaaman rang taa charhai jaa pir kai ank samaa-ay. 31
The soul-bride is imbued with His Love, when her Husband Lord merges her into His Being. 31
chiree vichhunay bhee milan jo satgur sayvann.
Even those who have been separated for so very long, are reunited with Him, when they serve the True Guru.

antar nav niDh naam hai khaan kharchan na nikhuta-ee har gun sahj ravann. 32
The nine treasures of the Naam, the Name of the Lord, are deep within the nucleus of the self; consuming them, they are still never exhausted. Chant the Glorious Praises of the Lord, with natural ease. 32

naa o-ay janmeh naa mareh naa o-ay dukh sahann.
They are not born, and they do not die; they do not suffer in pain.

gur raakhay say ubray har si-o kayl karann. 33
Those who are protected by the Guru are saved. They celebrate with the Lord. 33

sajan milay na vichhurheh je an-din milay rahann.
Those who are united with the Lord, the True Friend, are not separated again; night and day, they remain blended with Him.

is jag meh virlay jaanee-ahi naanak sach lahann. 3413
In this world, only a rare few are known, O Nanak, to have obtained the True Lord. 3413

Having read that I felt like all the questions that I’ve ever had have been answered, even the ones that I’ve not actively thought about but may have thought of in passing.

Some of the comments made by Guru Amar Das Ji Maharaaj are so simple yet they hit straight home due to its blinding truth. All of this Shabad is amazing, but the following Tuks really stood out for me,

dunee-aa na saalaahi jo mar vanjsee.
Do not praise the world; it shall simply pass away.

lokaa na saalaahi jo mar khaak thee-ee. 1
Do not praise other people; they shall die and turn to dust. 1

vaahu mayray saahibaa vaahu.
Waaho! Waaho! Hail, hail to my Lord and Master.

gurmukh sadaa salaahee-ai sachaa vayparvaahu. 1 rahaa-o.
As Gurmukh, forever praise the One who is forever True, Independent and Carefree. 1Pause

dunee-aa kayree dostee manmukh dajh marann.
Making worldly friendships, the self-willed manmukhs burn and die.

I often tend to get caught up in friendships and worldly distraction, if only I could learn to let go and be carefree.

I still don’t know what it is that’s making me feel the way I am, but this Shabad by Guru Amar Das Ji Maharaaj are definitely told me some home truths about life.

Ultimately there’s one thing I know for certain; ‘Man Kyon Bairag Karega, Satgur Mera Poora’.